Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Freak

I am a freak for Jesus.

Why else would I subject myself to conversations that defend the church's teaching on contraception and ART while I can't conceive another child?

Conversations that are so difficult to have because the topics, words and vocabulary I use are so very foreign to the listener.

I look like a complete freak.

I get the feeling that the people I speak with (which are only a few) feel sorry for me because they perceive me as a sucker for belonging to an oppressive church.

Then, I think of the Litany of Humility.

And, the Sorrowful Mysteries- particularly the crowning of thorns.  Jesus gave me a supreme example of how to love and suffer and be humiliated.

Then I think of all of you.  And, I know I'm not alone.

Do you ever feel like this?

Thanks for having my back.